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Oct 12, 2022·edited Oct 12, 2022Liked by Kulak

> I've read multiple books by men who committed sepuku. One was a westerner who was paralyzed from the chest down...

A man who spent his last months on earth writing a manifesto, pleading that his readers support the legalization of suicide. Who wanted desperately to die in bed, surrounded by his loved ones, after bidding them good-bye. Who instead died alone, having concealed his intentions and true feelings from them for months for fear they would put him into protective custody and close his last avenue of escape.

Clayton would have gladly taken the ugly compromise of assisted suicide over the horror he had to endure.

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There's a big distinction between wanting to be legally able to put your affairs in order/talk to family/ not be imprisoned by the state, and wanting to live the final moments of your life through the state.

Clayton, being 70% paralyzed was actually one of the few people who would have a justifiable claim for needing outside assistance to commit suicide, and he pulled it off himself.

By contrast I've seen stories of teens in Canada seeking assisted suicide, not using any of the legal protections to put their affairs in order, and then backing down once their parents catch wind and threaten to sue the doctor... not because anything's really stopping them from killing themselves, but because now they don't have the emotional crutch of institutional assistance.

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I don't object to people being legally able to kill themselves (wat the hell are you going to do? Imprison them for life strapped to a gurney?), I object to tax dollars and the legal system pressuring them into killing themselves in the ugliest way possible, and the mentality that goes along with that ugly means of dying.

I just watched my grandfather go... 6+ months of crippling medical issues, and physical and mental decline... my god I don't want to die in a hospital bed tended by some infantilizing nurse.

If it ever gets near that I'll walk out on the ice and keep walking.

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Oct 12, 2022Liked by Kulak

strong agree here. The rise of MAiD (even that acronym looks evil) shows that the incentives are all fucked up. The state should not be in the business of killing its citizens anywhere, anytime, for any reason.

Criminally - it is way too easy to make a mistake (or worse, have a zealous prosecutor ignore or fabricate evidence) and the execution of an innocent person by the state is unforgiveable.

Medically - The slope is not just slippery but literally coated with vaseline

https://www.commonsense.news/p/scheduled-to-die-the-rise-of-canadas

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No man has a right to get someone else to kill him, committing murder in the process. And the very last person he would ever have the right to ask is a doctor, who has sworn to do no harm.

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This is the second publication of yours I've read, and I have to pose the question: Do you write fiction? If not, then you should. Your pen is gifted with a beautifully raw expression of rage and violence that I haven't seen since Palahniuk.

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You can tell much about the way a person lived by the way they (choose to) die.

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I can attest to the experience in California. Patients have to ingest the medication. It is not an injection that is administered by someone else. For those who can’t swallow, a rectal catheter can be rigged to a delivery pump, but they need to trigger the delivery pump itself

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